A wonder, no wonder: Do you want to be my friend?

A wonder, no wonder

Wednesday, April 01, 2009

Do you want to be my friend?

Epiphany.

It occurs to me that it's in fashion to talk about friends.

As scarcastic as that may sound, another epiphany.

When things weren't going great recently, I lay in bed and practically gave up on life. I hated it. I asked God for one favour last Thursday: "Show me how much you care." I went home after classes, bitterly disappointed.

Nothing's more irritating than to have a friend turn his back on you. Much less to say, how much more disappointing to have God turn His back on you. I found myself struggling with the very core of what made me, me. Honestly, if I weren't Christian I would have probably come up with some wildly creative idea to end this miserable life as it is. Maybe I'd try coming up with something involving Jurong Bird Park; seems like they need a little publicity. Imagine me. Pecked to death. By parrots.

It's only after thinking through things for countless hours that I realise something about the friends I have. It's only after reading the various blogs that I realise something about the friends I have. It's only after going through life as it is right now that I realise something about the friends I have.

They may not be able to give me the answers I'm looking for. But they sure have made the journey much more bearable. Maybe that's God's way of telling me he cares. Maybe it isn't. I don't know for sure and it's not like I can sms nor call Him about it to confirm for real. "Eh, bro, steady or not? That's was YOU!?"

To who those who care, you know who you are. You know that Als appreciates you. You also should know what Als doesn't like getting sappy so this is actually more sappy than I'm making it out to be.

I guess experiences in life make you treasure the people who actually care enough about you to talk to you. I should be glad I have people to talk to and want to talk to me. (Unlike some people out there)

posted by The Als @ 2:42 am

3 Comments:

At 4:37 pm, Ariane said…

I WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND, ALSON!
At 6:22 pm, Mark Soo said…

Haha what a unglam way to die alson, pecked to death by parrots. But such creativity is expected from you :)

Anyway, what about crocodile farm? No publicity from them recently too ^^
At 12:52 am, The Als said…

Ugh crocodile farm. =/

Aren't you already my friend? heh

Yeah crocodile farm.. hmmm.. nahh. A little smelly.