A wonder, no wonder: Here we go again

A wonder, no wonder

Monday, February 02, 2009

Here we go again

A brand new beggining indeed. HAH. Run the mouth and then letting this blog rot for 7 months or so.

So what's been going on with The Als and his warped world? For starters, he realises that the blogging universe is slowly shrinking. It's tough to constantly keep writing and updating. It's one to be a chore, but now that my days are spent wasting 5, 6 hours in between lessons, this one might be a chore I actually adore.

GPA's up, for the first time in my life, I actually CARE about my GPA. 3.2's the score, actually much better than the pathetic 2.1 I slipped by with back in Temasuck Poly. Amazing, Als can actually bloody study!

Interestingly enough, the lack of a writing module this 3rd semester has really deprived me of the freedom and fuel to write. Strangely, the lack of a need to write would make you think that this would actually free me up more to do what I do. Unfortunately, no. Yeah, free time may be one thing, but unfor, I guess me not having an outlet to express what I do best is really killing.

All of a sudden, as much as I chisel a smile on my face and visit friends and visit family, it's all for a show. The actor, The Als. Confession: I've skipped classes for 2 straight days now, which is unlike me. I feel crushed inside somehow. I feel that nothing matters anymore. Somehow, I feel like I've lost the reason that makes me tick day to day. Sooner or later, that ornamental smile will be seen through by someone or two. Don't get me wrong, I truly did have quite a bit of fun this chinese new year, I've also done things that I've wanted to accomplish. I've brought smiles to people. It's like how a little girl once asked her mum: "Mummy, why are we here on earth for?"
"Well honey, to help others!" her mum replies.
The little girl thinks for a moment and says "then mummy, what are the others here for?"

True. What the fuck are the others here for?

posted by The Als @ 11:12 pm

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